or errant thoughts I should say. I’ve been wondering lately (not very lately actually – frequently perhaps, but in minute portions. hence I do easily forget I thought about it) about my inability to convey my thoughts into words.
I find it especially astounding reading articles, biographies or what nots (of course not unless it’s interesting or I wouldn’t even start) of people who convey their thoughts so well that you actually feel how they feel subconsciously. pretty subliminal, and daunting, perhaps, because they might imprint some ideology in us without us even knowing. but that’s besides the point. yes, so you see, the thing about me is when I think of something, another thought fits almost seamlessly into the current one, so much that I feel somewhat inclined, or obliged, to totter about it. and unknowingly another thought would seep in, I’ll digress again, and you get the drift.
it’s especially tiring for me to force myself to concentrate on a single topic. more often than not, I found myself straying off topic in most of my gp essays. but I still managed to attain at least a B so whatever I’m not complaining. neither am I bragging on cyberspace – a B isn’t a very good grade. hohoho Asians and the perfectionist theorem. it’s in our blood.
yes. so my thoughts are discombobulated. like say a kaleidoscope of random and some not-so-random stuff. it doesn’t seem like a colorful kaleidoscope though, maybe one covered in dust such that the top’s all murky and you can’t see the shapes clearly.
I don’t write about stuff that happened in the day. I don’t fancy turning my space into a diary. of course there may be eventful notions to take note off, but I find it particularly out-of-place to mention them here. maybe it’s just me. I cant really define this feeling too. I just know they shouldn’t be here. I guess this is one the many reasons why I find blogging so difficult.
right. now I’m at a loss for words. haha. that’s my awkward laugh. alright so it’s a goodbye till the next time I chance upon something worthy to talk about.
hurhur
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